Petty

I think I know why I was pissed.
It was because I was jealous. I'm not familiar with that emotion. We haven't crossed paths often. I don't know whether or not I like the idea of being jealous of an inanimate object as opposed to an animate one.
When did I become so petty? I am made of stronger stuff. I've survived this long. I've survived myself this long. Independent of mind.
I enjoy alone time. I enjoy my own company. Do I still?
Very confusing and new. Not me at all. I am growing so to speak. Pleased/ not pleased? The jury is still out.

What I do know is that I will not become a cliche.


Listening to: Trouble by Ray LaMontagne

Self- Destruction

Only I can destroy what I am creating...
what I have tried to create...
and what has been created.
I am in a self-destructive mood.
Why.
Protection?
Maybe.
I've underestimated my survival instincts.

The Hitchcock Chord

Diatonic chord in the harmonic minor scale.

Why do I remember this info from my music in movies class taken circa 2004?

Anyways, a certain someone got me interested to hear more from Debussy. I kinda feel like "La cathédrale engloutie" right now. Dissonance relaxes me.