The Go to Gal

I have a feeling that I will be taking care of others for the rest of my life.

Grapes of Wrath

One time I went out into the wilderness to find my own soul but I found I did not have a soul that was mine. I found I just had a little piece of a great big soul. A wilderness was not good cause my little piece of a soul was not good unless it was with the rest. There it would be whole.

Papa was a rolling stone

I lost my car

in my dream last night. I've dreamed this dream so many times. I now understand what it may mean.
Also present were a bunch of Black, Hispanic and Asian men. They all had blond girlfriends. Now WTF does that mean?

On An Abandoned Road

Dreams but dreamt now real.
Not quite what I imagined.
I used to enter these dreams frequently.
Now, not so much.
There exists all of my imaginings, stray stories.
He used to enter them frequently, back in April.
Then not at all.
Now He is back again.
Why do I dream of school and Him?
What does it mean to dream of abandonment?
You can only abandon that which you've possessed, cherished, defended or retained.
By that definition I cannot call this abandonment.
The ocean tide is shifting.
My confidence has been amplifying.
This makes me exuberant.
Over the past 3 years I have felt my independence wane.
I had become weak.
Gleefully I can say that my independence has reared its head again.
My strength has always come from within.
Liberation is within my grasp.
I can feel it against my fingertips.
I control my thoughts and emotions. They do not control me.
The more I am pushed, the more I rebel.
Stubborn.
Only I have lived my life.
Only I possess the ability to live this life.
Viva La Vie Boheme.

sink+ dishes= me no likey

What does it mean if you dream of abandonment?

Abandonment Dream Psychological meaning: This dream may express your unconscious emotions of being forsaken. Examine the reasons for this feeling. Do you feel that people emotionally neglect you? Perhaps you harbour feelings of resentment such as an unresolved problem from childhood? The dream also may be saying how you need to express your feelings and be understood by others. On another level, the dream may say that you need guidance with some life issue. For example, you hope for an 'authority figure' to help you take control of your life. Many people have this dream after the death of a loved one. Grief brings a strange mixture of emotions: anger, resentment, depression, panic and abandonment. These feelings are all part of the healing process.

Abandonment Dream Mystical meaning: To abandon something unpleasant indicated good financial news ahead. But the omens are bad if you abandon someone or something you cherish - destiny sees troubled times. However, if you are the one abandoned then reconciliation will happen quickly.

To dream that you are abandoned, suggests that it is time to leave behind past feelings and characteristics that are hindering your own growth. Let go of your old attitudes. A more direct and literal interpretation of this dream is that you have a fear of being deserted, abandoned, or even betrayed. Do you feel that people are neglecting your feelings? Being abandoned can represent a feeling or fear of abandonment, feeling alone, or being left behind in real life—in a current or past situation. Consider focusing on self-care and nurturing, and seek out comfort and companionship from supportive friends and family.

Dreaming that you are abandoned, may stem from a recent loss or a fear of losing a loved one. The fear of abandonment may manifest itself into your dream and is part of the healing process of dealing with losing a loved one. It may also stem from unresolved feelings or problems from childhood.

I am so tired

My body has been shutting down. I feel as if my brain is following. I have not felt right for a while now. I am fine with this knowledge. I learned how to walk years ago.

I am in love with leeks

Crack is whack.

Lovely Christmas Music

is playing but for some reason I am not in the Christmas spirit. I am losing touch with my love of company. In a perfect world right now for me would be at least a week of silence

February 2, 2010

Is this the big day?

What a beautiful World we live in

Travel is my calling

Scarlett Rose

I now have a new favorite name.
I still love Charlotte and Sophia but Scarlett Rose is beautiful.
So the list now goes:

Charlotte
Sophia
Scarlett
Daniel Faraday
Alexander
Duncan

After having an in depth conversation with someone who appears to understand what I am about, I am slowly realizing that I am better than what people think. I knew that already but so much negativity and criticizing of my person had brought about doubt.

Focus

I have always had a hard time focusing.
Because of this, I do not have the best memory.
I cannot up and recall phrases or teachings or words.
I am not the smoothest peanut butter in the cupboard.
I wish I had better control of my mind, then learning would come a lot easier.

"light another cigarette and let yourself go"

The Game by Queen:

I don't know if this album will be me tomorrow or a month from now but for this obscure minuscule moment in time, I am playing the game before it plays me.

TTSC

This thing is not how it should be; it should not be this difficult.
Am I not whole?
I feel deprived.
Malnourished.
Am I severely lacking or is it not meant to be?
Am I meant to walk this road alone?
Do I know where I should be or am I already there?
Have I always been?
Have I really changed or have I just compromised?
When I turn around all I see is a haze.
Why do I feel as if I am walking backwards?
Dog eat dog.
Beloved adjacent to neglect in this bipolar space.
Leeches surround me.
They try to bleed me dry.
I give too much to these bloodsuckers, these soul extractors.
I should imbibe.
I have no use for spoiled children.

Found

I walked in the forest
So all by myself,
And to search for nothing
That was my intent.

In the shadow I saw
A small flower standing,
Shining like stars,
Beautiful as tender eyes.

I wanted to pluck it,
When it delicately said:
Shall I to wither
Be broken off?

I dug it up with all
Its small roots,
To the garden I brought it
By the pretty house.

An once more did I plant it
At a quiet nook;
Now it branches forever
And continues to bloom.


~Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

I often wonder why so few people take me seriously.

Why does my alphabet only has 25 letters?

I absolutely need to catch some z's.

Not I

Why classify. I am whatever I choose to be.

Delighted

I sometimes amaze myself. How do I get so stuck inside my own mind that I do not perceive the obvious.
How silly of me.
It must be my propensity to hold on and to not concede.

still searching for those elephants in water

Why does it seem as if we have more appreciation in things we do not have versus what we do have when we have it?

Why isn't this working

Beautiful People

What a beautiful World we live in.

This made me smile

I found this note in a book, Death Comes for the Archbishop by Willa Cather. It somehow and for some reason struck a chord within me. I don't know why, but it made my day.

5/14/04

Marci-

I can't exactly express why, but I think you might enjoy this book.
I gave this book to Greg and others + everyone enjoyed it - No Pressure =)
Looking forward to seeing you!

David

Where are you?

Birthdays
Holidays
Dinner Parties
Social Gatherings
Celebrations

I was told that I should tell people how I feel

Why am I always so Fucking angry.
I can't tell you how I feel. It would only piss you off.

I wish I had a twin.

I want to meet people.
I want to learn.
I want to experience life through someone else’s perspective.
I want to go to space.
I want to love.
I want to be loved.
I want security.
I want to be excited all the time.
I want to be accepted the way I am.
I want to travel.
I want to drive across the country.
I want to be appreciated.
I want to not be afraid.
I want to be needed.
I want to have a family.
I want to be in great health.
I want to be nomadic.
I want to understand others motivations.
I want to listen.
I want reassurance.
I want to be heard.
I want to understand why I cannot understand.
I want control.
I want my chest to stop hurting.
I want a peach tree and a loquat tree.
I want a white picket fence and a country cottage.
I want to be stronger.
I want to understand people better.
I want to write.
I want to sing and dance.
I want to perform.
I want my mother.
I want understanding.
I want to live on the ocean.
I want to maximize my potential.
I want drive.
I want knowledge.
I want to own nothing.
I want to know what I want.
I want history.
I want serenity.

Sophia

There is a little 5 year old girl named Sophia that comes into the store with her dad. She is cute and very intelligent. I do not tend to like many children but I do enjoy her.
This of course has nothing to do with the fact that I like the name Sophia/ Sophie and would like to name a daughter of mine that name. Alis and I are still fighting over it. Lol.
Anyways, I am writing this because I think I enjoy kids, some kids that is. Most children are obnoxious brats that aren't very friendly or fun but a few are genuinely sweet, interesting kids. I like those ones. It shows that there are good parents out there.
Both father and daughter are very relaxing people. I do not know why they make me feel relaxed but they do. Things to think about I guess. It is great when you can find people that don't put more stress on you.
Genuine.
I like that.


Oh and yes, this is the girl that told me that I was a faster runner than her because I was African. Hahaha.

Everyman, I will go with thee, and be thy guide
In thy most need to go by thy side.

Reboot

Emotionally exhausted and drained.

I feel like crying.

Feeling unappreciated. I hate being a nurturer. Still the fucking black sheep.
My stomach hurts and I feel like throwing up.
Walls are erected.

Why are old people so miserable?

I didn't have a good day yesterday. Met a woman who obviously wasn't having a good day and wanted to bring everyone else down. I have been going through my own issues lately and really didn't need the extra negativity. I don't like holding things in but there is no one to talk to. Oh well. Vacation starts tomorrow. Yippee.

I've just come to the conclusion that I suck at writing.

Aghast

_________________________________________________

Life

One day I hope to put into words how I feel whenever I hear the ocean, whenever I see a sunset, and whenever I see the sun set over the ocean.

Amount

After perusing, I wonder how I will ever amount to her.

Travel

I have an intense need to travel. Will you go with me?

Ha!

"personal immortality is a chimera"

a reverie for me

My name

I have never really payed attention before but I have realized that the people close to me do not usually say my name. It is so rare in fact that when I hear it spoken from their lips, I am taken aback. It is so foreign and strange to me to hear my name called. Is that weird? LOL.
I like hearing my name coming from the lips of certain people. It tells me that they indeed know who I am. It validates me somehow. I don't know. I am just being creepy I guess.

:D

darling

you are special

to me you are astounding

~Bueller

Allowances

So, still stalking Bueller and I find it interesting to read about what happened to him on certain days and remembering what I had done on those same days. Comparing our lives is fascinating.
I know I am a much different person than I was 6 months ago let alone 2 years ago and reading his entries I do wonder. He isn't a very easy person to read. Predictably unpredictable it has been said.
I don't like surprises but I will have to make allowances.

Found whilst stalking Bueller

Your result for The Final Fantasy Job Class Test ...

Chemist

You scored 33% physical, 45% magic, 56% versatile, and 61% good!

Your talent lies in getting useful effects out of things you have with you. You have a decent understanding of first aid and can probably heal someone's wounds using some simple herbs. If you have any potions on you, you know how to make them work better than other people do. Enemies should watch out when you get your hands on volatile stuff...

Ingenue

Gus Gus

Follow the white rabbit

"Well I know you're reaching out, and you need to feel my hand, you want to be understood, yeah well I understand. I know you hold precious little hope for me, and in your happiness, I'm always drowning in my grief...."

happiness is a warm gun

Not feeling Well

I am not feeling well.
I checked my weight on the scale and it seems I LOST 5 pounds. I believe now I am at 130.
This is my last week, for a month, of eating whatever I want. August I am going to try Tessa's vegetarianism. It isn't exactly vegetarianism since she does eat seafood but whatever.
This LOST monster is feeling the loss of something but I can't quite put my finger on it.
Seasons are changing here is S.D.

Sanity LOST

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Drained

I hate being stressed out.
I hate my car.
I have to take a break from certain people in my life before I end up exploding. I am a bit too passive towards the people I care about. I've got to learn to stop allowing things to build up cause I don't want to hurt any feelings.
These last couple of days almost everyone I know has chipped a piece of my sanity off of me. Although I had a stressful vacation, I did have fun in my own kind of way; I did accomplish most of my goals for Comic Con so I guess I should not complain too much.
Now that I'm back to work I remember why I don't like leaving it for more than 2 days at a time. I hate having to clean up the messes that are made. Just once I would like to not have to worry. I'll be fixing things until Wednesday.
So yeah.
Things are great.
I am so drained.
Thoughts of driving north are invading my thoughts again.

Hiatus

Curious

My Soul is Dark

My soul is dark --- Oh ! Quickly string

The harp I yet can brook to hear;

And let thy gentle fingers fling

Its melting murmurs o'er mine ear.

If in this heart a hope be dear,

That sound shall charm it forth again:

If in these eyes there lurk a tear,

'T will flow, and cease to burn my brain.

But bid the strain be wild and deep,

Nor let thy notes of joy be first:

I tell thee, minstrel, I must weep,

Or else this heavy heart will burst;

For it hath been by sorrow nursed,

And ach'd in sleepless silence long;

And now 'tis doom'd to know the worst,

And break at once --- or yield to song.

~Lord Byron
1815

Rabbit Food

So my aunt told me that my salads taste better than anyone else's even hers.
It's not hard to make a salad and she is approximately the 5th person to have told me that I make a good one. I don't know whether to be insulted, cause it's just a freakin salad or elated.
I should make salads for a living.
Maybe I unconsciously put some juju magic in salads whilst making them. Either that or everyone else is lazy and just wants me to do the work.

Alicia Keys is Beautiful

Losing Weight

I've been shedding those extra pounds that I have put on through the years.
Haha mentally and physically.
Awesome.
Revitalized.

Petty

I think I know why I was pissed.
It was because I was jealous. I'm not familiar with that emotion. We haven't crossed paths often. I don't know whether or not I like the idea of being jealous of an inanimate object as opposed to an animate one.
When did I become so petty? I am made of stronger stuff. I've survived this long. I've survived myself this long. Independent of mind.
I enjoy alone time. I enjoy my own company. Do I still?
Very confusing and new. Not me at all. I am growing so to speak. Pleased/ not pleased? The jury is still out.

What I do know is that I will not become a cliche.


Listening to: Trouble by Ray LaMontagne

Self- Destruction

Only I can destroy what I am creating...
what I have tried to create...
and what has been created.
I am in a self-destructive mood.
Why.
Protection?
Maybe.
I've underestimated my survival instincts.

Adventures in Wonderland

Pissed
Quaking
Dance
Crunk
Emotions
Ponderous
Heat

Where is my relaxation?
Don't know what to make of this.
I blame Bueller.

Slinky

love

FUCK BIRDS

Damn them all to hell!


Mood: psychotic

Listening to: Isn't She Lovely by Stevie Wonder

Taketi and Uloomu

I do not know why I have chosen to believe that you would change. I know there is no pleasing you. No matter what I do, it will always be wrong. I do not like to say "I give up" but in this respect, I do. I will live fully to my own beliefs. In respect to you, I will not argue with you on our conflicting thoughts. You can believe as you wish; you won't believe the truth anyways. I will continue to love you. I only wonder if you will do the same.
I am not my mother nor do I aspire to be her. I am I. A sentient being shaped from my own perceptions and being honest, some societal conformities.
I am not you nor will I ever be confined to your statutes. I couldn't live like that. I wonder how can you.

Poem

Bueller wrote me a poem. This is the first time someone has written a poem for me.
I am happy.

Queen of Swords

Sigh

SHE walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies,
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meets in her aspect and her eyes;
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which Heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress
Or softly lightens o'er her face,
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.

And on that cheek and o'er that brow
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent;
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent.

Lord Byron

Diamonds are a Girls Best Friend

Strawberries

Eating my favorite fruit= Bliss.

The Hitchcock Chord

Diatonic chord in the harmonic minor scale.

Why do I remember this info from my music in movies class taken circa 2004?

Anyways, a certain someone got me interested to hear more from Debussy. I kinda feel like "La cathédrale engloutie" right now. Dissonance relaxes me.

Pacific KM- Time

I should have my own time zone.
I seem to have a timetable of my own.
Slower than others.
Every 24 hours is but a mere minute in KM time.
Every year a month.
Seasons change here in S.D.

Asphyxiation

I hate stifling me.

Frustrated

Is that at all tenable?

28 Something Later

In 28 Days Later and 28 Weeks Later why do the people who are infected with the rage virus not attack each other? Why do they only attack people who are not infected? That doesn't make sense. It also isn't consistent with the description of the virus. Supposedly if infected you become consumed with rage and the need to kill/destroy anything. They even beat themselves up to an extent.
So why not kill each other? It isn't logical.

Tattoo

I really want another tattoo. I plan on getting one soon. Next month maybe? I have no idea what to get though. Hell, I'll probably get something random like I did the last two times. I enjoy random.

Surprise

Life is full of surprises.

yackity yack

something something something


i guess i should learn the words to the song

Matthew Fox is the Best

Ice Cream

So I was telling Tessa about the Daily Show with Jon Stewart skit 'White in America' and I told her about the scene where the correspondent asked the children what ice cream they liked. They all said chocolate or some other flavor with chocolate in it. The point being made is that they wouldn't pick vanilla.

Tessa: "Your pick would have been vanilla though."
Kamia: "Yeah, I would so pick vanilla."
Tessa: "It's like eating Skinny Cow. What is the type that you like?"
Kamia: "I love that vanilla in the chocolate one."
Tessa: *snickers*
Kamia: "I can't believe I fell for that!"

Pathetic

I regret spending money on a supposed friend. He didn't know how to be a friend and probably will never have a real friend ever. He is a punkass bitch and he will always be a punkass bitch until he grows up and he has a lot of growing up to do before he will ever be able to deal with his demons and become a better person.

My Nickname Compliments of Sawyer

OMG SEXY Gambit!

Why?

because It'll only make me stronger.

List 2

Movies I want to see this year:
1. X-Men Origins: Wolverine
2. Star Trek
3. G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra
4. Drag Me to Hell
5. Inglourious Basterds
6. H2: Halloween 2
7. Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen
8. Old Boy
9. Red Sonja
10. Trick r' Treat

List

1. Lose 10 pounds by this summer.
2. 6 cups of water everyday
3. Giving up alcohol for good?
4. Seafood and chicken (Every once in a while I'll have beef and bacon. )

LOST

I found this at lostroom23.blogspot.com.
If you are as big a LOST fan as I am you too must think it's awesome.

Yay!

Quiz School - Try this quiz and get your own certificate

I wish

I knew more free thinkers.

Move on

Some people have a hard time moving on and just letting things go. Not me. Whatever happened, happened.

People just don't understand

*Sigh*

Well hell.

I'm a girl!

Someone told me today that I giggle when I'm flirting with someone. GIGGLE! That's disgusting! What the freak! I'M TURNING INTO A GIRL! I can't believe this is happening to me. I refuse to be like them!

I'm bored

So a pirate walks into a bar, okay, and swaggers up to the barkeep and demands a glass of rum. I believe his exact words were "Your rum or your life, dog, what'll it be?".
And so the bartender, being a reasonable fellow, makes no complaint but simply grabs a large glass, a bottle of fine dark rum, and begins to pour. And while he's waiting for the glass to fill (this being, as I said before, a large glass) he sizes up the pirate, having never seen a real honest-to-God pirate before.
This pirate is in full pirate gear. Gold earrings, patch over the eye, a big filthy white blouse covering his swarthy chest, tattoos everywhere, all of it. But protruding from his pirate trousers is the unmistakable form of a steering wheel.
Well, the bartender sees that the glass of rum is just about topped off, so he passes the glass across the bar to the pirate, who nods curtly and takes a huge swig of the rum. Slapping a dubloon on the bartop, he turns to walk away, when our bartender's curiousity gets the best of him.
"Wait, one second. What's up with the steering wheel?"
And the pirate turns back and fixes him with a beady glare from his lone eye. "Arrr, I don't know, but it's drivin' me nuts!"

Out of Context

Scene: Sandi trying a ring on her finger.

Sandi: "Man, I really wished this fit."
Kamia: "That's what he said!"


Scene #2: Sandi putting all donations into one bin.

Sandi: "I'm surprised I got all that in there."
Kamia: "That's what he said!"

F' it

F' it. I'm picky.

They're either too young of too Old :(

I have two 15 year old boys that like to come into the store and harass me. They're actually sweethearts and even though they may be strange now, the ladies will be all over them when they are older. One of them, Derrick has been coming into the store almost since it's first been open. I call him the accident prone kid. I call him this because he always has something physically wrong with him every time he comes in. He's had a bloody nose, scratches all over his arms, poison ivy scratches, a broken arm, sprained ankle, etc. He calls me bionic lady because I've had surgery on my knee.

I told them that they have a great bromance going. Their response was that they won't be friends after high school because they'll go to different colleges and stop talking to each other as they start new lives. As you can see they are both smart asses. Yesterday they saw a book about Sarah Palin and said "Look, it's the face of evil". Then they went on this huge discussion about how they hate McCain. I swear I would love to tape them orating their own political views and life stories so I can post the video on youtube. Their response would probably be calling me a pedophile.

Anyways, my co-workers say that they have a crush on me. I didn't really think so until yesterday when they came in. Derrick's friend saw a Charlie Brown Valentine's Day book behind me and made this comment:

"Derrick is going to hide in your mailbox like Snoopy so he can love you."

Why Thank You Mr. Rich Man

Goodwill decided to give me a birthday card. This is what it said:

"Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that the people who have the most, live the longest. Happy Birthday!"

It was signed by the CEO.

Now I'm well off but I believe someone who isn't really wouldn't appreciate receiving this card. It's kind of a nah nah nah nah nah I've got money and will live longer than you poor people!

People Who Live In Glass Houses

Equality
1. The condition or quality of being equal; agreement in quantity or degree as compared; likeness in bulk, value, rank, properties, etc.; as, the equality of two bodies in length or thickness; an equality of rights.
2. Sameness in state or continued course; evenness; uniformity; as, an equality of temper or constitution.

Narrow-minded
1. Having or showing a prejudiced mind, as persons or opinions; biased.
2. Not receptive to new ideas; having a closed mind.
3. Extremely conservative and morally self-righteous.

Hypocrisy
1. A pretense of having a virtuous character, moral or religious beliefs or principles, etc., that one does not really possess.
2. A pretense of having some desirable or publicly approved attitude.
3. The practice of professing beliefs, feelings, or virtues that one does not hold or possess; falseness.

Discrimination
1. Treatment or consideration of, or making a distinction in favor of or against, a person or thing based on the group, class, or category to which that person or thing belongs rather than on individual merit: racial and religious intolerance and discrimination.
2. The power of making fine distinctions; discriminating judgment.

Prejudice
1. An unfavorable opinion or feeling formed beforehand or without knowledge, thought, or reason.
2. Any preconceived opinion or feeling, either favorable or unfavorable.
3. Unreasonable feelings, opinions, or attitudes, esp. of a hostile nature, regarding a racial, religious, or national group.

Segregation
1. The act or process of segregating or the condition of being segregated.
2. The policy or practice of separating people of different races, classes, or ethnic groups, as in schools, housing, and public or commercial facilities, especially as a form of discrimination.

Sexism
1. Discriminatory or abusive behavior towards members of the opposite sex

Racism
1. A belief or doctrine that inherent differences among the various human races determine cultural or individual achievement, usually involving the idea that one's own race is superior and has the right to rule others.
2. A policy, system of government, etc., based upon or fostering such a doctrine; discrimination.
3. Hatred or intolerance of another race or other races.

Genocide
1. The deliberate and systematic extermination of a national, racial, political, or cultural group.

Hate
1. To feel hostility or animosity toward.
2. To detest.
3. To feel dislike or distaste for
4. To dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest

Love
1. A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. Affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.
4. The benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.

To truly love you must love the differences. You must love the perfections as well as the imperfections. It is not enough to love some and not all. If you can't treat people equally can you truly say you believe in love?

Judge not, lest ye be judged.
~Matthew 7:1~

Beloved, let us love one another.
For love is of God
And everyone who loves
Is born of God and knows God.
He who loveth not, knoweth not God, for God is love.
~1 John 4:7-8~

Mistake

mis⋅take
1. an error in action, calculation, opinion, or judgment caused by poor reasoning, carelessness, insufficient knowledge, etc.
2. a misunderstanding or misconception.
3. to regard or identify wrongly as something or someone else: I mistook him for the mayor.
4. to understand, interpret, or evaluate wrongly; misunderstand; misinterpret.
5. to be in error.
6. and no mistake, for certain; surely: He's an honorable person, and no mistake.



I think I made a mistake. I guess I'll know for sure in the next month or so.

Honesty

I happen think of myself as quite honest. Yes there have been lies here and there but they were usually told to preserve someone's feelings.
I would like to tell everyone now to go ahead and ask me any question you would like and I will give you an honest answer.

Does anyone actually read this crap?

I wouldn't. Save yourself.

My Zodiac Sign

This is freakin me guys!

Aquarius Zodiac Sign
January 20 - February 18
Element: Air
Quality: Fixed
Ruling Planet: Uranus
Symbol: Waterbearer
Keywords: Eccentric, Intellectual, Aloof, Progressive, Friendly

Unconventional and outspoken, Aquarius is the rebel of the zodiac. Aquarians tend to be eccentric in their speech and behavior, often drawing attention to themselves. Equality, freedom and fairness are important to this individual and he or she has a genuine interest in humankind. An aloof and detached nature is characteristic of this sign and he or she feels most comfortable relating to people on a mental level. Aquarius needs a partner who is her or her intellectual equal and who is willing to provide freedom and space.

I'm Walking on Sunshine

A man came into the store yesterday at approximately 5:45pm. I state the time because I want it to be known that it was dark outside. I was alone. Well, he asked me for change for his $10 bill, 1 five and 5 ones. He was dressed in some sort of ceremonial clothes I do not know what religion but he started to bless me and proceeded in telling me God was here on earth. He told me that we must live peacefully and become vegetarians and to live our lives on earth as it is in heaven. It was serious stuff and he was serious about what he was saying but I was smiling the whole time about ready to burst into laughter. I had no problem with him preaching to me nor did I have a problem with what he was preaching. My problem is that I was very distracted with the fact he smelled like he had rather recently been smoking weed. Now I am not condemning him because he smokes weed, I just thought that if he was going around preaching the word he might want to do it when he wasn't high. It is kinda contradicting. It would also discourage individuals from actually listening to him if they are getting a contact high. Seriously, as I was listening to him talk my body started to feel strange. I was so close to singing "I'm walking on Sunshine" and doing a little two step to the music in my head.
I have never smoked a thing in my life and never will (not even hookah) and I also dislike cigarettes since they are unhealthy and I can't stand the smell. He is very lucky it was me and not one of the other girls there; I am more accepting than they would have been. I did enjoy meeting him though; I like meeting new people.
The human race is full of interesting people and you know me, always interested in the interesting.

A Song for You

I happen to love Donny Hathaway's version of this song the most but no matter who is singing it, the lyrics are the most powerful aspect about it. I wouldn't mind someone singing this song to me.

A Song for You
by: Leon Russell

I've been so many places in my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs
I've made some bad rhymes
I've acted out my life in stages
With 10,000 people watching
But we're alone now and I'm singing this song to you
I know your image of me is what I hoped to be
I treated you unkindly
And darling can't you see
There's no one more important to me
Baby can't you see through me
Cause we're alone now and I'm singing this song to you
You taught me precious secrets
Of a true love , Withholding nothing
You came out in front and I was hiding
Now I'm so much better
And if my words don't come together
Listen to the melody
Cause my love is in there hiding
I love you in a place where there's no space or time
I love you for my life
You're a friend of mine
And when my life is over
Remember when we were together
We were alone and I was singing this song to you.
I love you in a place where there's no space or time
I love you for my life
You're a friend of mine
And when my life is over
Remember when we were together
We were alone and I was singing this song to you.

Sad

My family makes me sad.
Why is it when things begin to look up, something is inevitably there to bring things down again.
Despite the fact that my family makes me sad, I'm still not sad, sad. There's always something good to look forward to.
That's the thing about life.
I'm sad but I'm not.

On a Road

Break lights straight ahead.
Should I slow down and stop soon?
Or change the channel.

Out of Context #4

Rebecca: "He wouldn't even put the monitor in there. The other guy was skinnier and he didn't have any problem sticking it in."

Kamia: "That's what she said!"

Read My Mind

Read My Mind
by: The Killers

On the corner of main street
Just tryin' to keep it in line
You say you wanna move on and
You say I'm falling behind
Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?
I never really gave up on
Breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around
Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?
The good old days, the honest man;
The restless heart, the Promised Land
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze
Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind
Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go, can you read my mind?
It’s funny how you just break down
Waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway
With magic soakin' my spine
Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?
The teenage queen, the loaded gun;
The drop dead dream, the Chosen One
A southern drawl, a world unseen;
A city wall and a trampoline
Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind
Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go
Tell me what you find when you read my mind
Slippin’ in my faith until I fall
You never returned that call
Woman, open the door, don't let it sting
I wanna breathe that fire again
She said
I don't mind, you don't mind
Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Put your back on me
Put your back on me
Put your back on me
The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun
When you read my mind